It will all come together

I believe it all comes together, the questions, the why’s, the desires, the understanding, healing, all leads to one conclusion. It really is all about love. Learning to love, to be sensitive, to care and to feel for others.
My past mistakes have motivated me to find reasons, to change, to heal.

Hi

Geoff, my brother, I’m so happy you are who you are! I’m thinking of you. Jacynth, I hope to see you guys soon love you lots. Calgary seems like a well organized city, love the Trains!
The speaker Doug Nelson, was so inspiring, and I thought of you Geoff, as he had to regain his health after a major trauma and being in a coma, like you.

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To continue, I don’t think my friend really knew what he was getting into. And I thought he might be a little more sensitive, but Xmas morning came and he seemed to be expecting me to go home as soon as I woke up. Oh well, that’s my life. Sometimes it’s as cold and grey in my heart as the weather outside. I have to tell myself the sun will shine again. Time seems meaningless when it comes to missing people.

Why I’m here.

I work in a hospital. No I’m not a nurse. I work in housekeeping. It’s not a glorified job. For me it’s significant.
It’s hard, it’s where I last saw my husband, my brother and my brothers son.
I kind of work with them in mind, after my brother died, I did the cleaning in his room. I wanted to. Life just seems to be about cleaning up sometimes.

I wanted to spend Xmas day alone after my older brother Michael died, so I could just think about him, my husband Robin, my nephew Eric and my grandparents and people who arent here anymore. That was a bit hard. I had a friend rescue me(kind of) Xmas eve. He didnt know my plan, just phoned to see how I was and invited me over. We stayed up all night drinking. That helped.(!)

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