Preying on anyone who is vulnerable, isolated, hurting, weak, and scared will come back to you ten fold. That’s not going to be fun no matter what your material gain. Anyone in my life who is like that, I know one day, no matter how long it takes, every atom of pain you cause comes back, and when you realize and start to feel really sorry, it comes back some more. Good luck with thinking you get away with it.
I believe it all comes together, the questions, the why’s, the desires, the understanding, healing, all leads to one conclusion. It really is all about love. Learning to love, to be sensitive, to care and to feel for others. My past mistakes have motivated me to find reasons, to change, to heal.
I live in the BEAUTIFUL Comox Valley. Mountains, rivers, ocean, valleys, music, art, and a small community of good people(mostly)!!! This is a perfect place for creative, nature loving people. It is quiet, safe and beauty surrounds you.
And now I am in Calgary. Thank you to a fellow traveller and native Calgarian, for giving me directions on the transit system. Thank you to Jules for so kindly meeting me and offering me a place to stay.
To continue, I don’t think my friend really knew what he was getting into. And I thought he might be a little more sensitive, but Xmas morning came and he seemed to be expecting me to go home as soon as I woke up. Oh well, that’s my life. Sometimes it’s as cold and grey in my heart as the weather outside. I have to tell myself the sun will shine again. Time seems meaningless when it comes to missing people.
I work in a hospital. No I’m not a nurse. I work in housekeeping. It’s not a glorified job. For me it’s significant. It’s hard, it’s where I last saw my husband, my brother and my brothers son. I kind of work with them in mind, after my brother died, I did the cleaning in his room. I wanted to. Life just seems to be about cleaning up sometimes.
I wanted to spend Xmas day alone after my older brother Michael died, so I could just think about him, my husband Robin, my nephew Eric and my grandparents and people who arent here anymore. That was a bit hard. I had a friend rescue me(kind of) Xmas eve. He didnt know my plan, just phoned to see how I was and invited me over. We stayed up all night drinking. That helped.(!)